Thursday, April 3, 2014

D - Depend




I was working on a blog post about darkness for D, but frankly, it was… well dark. And I couldn’t really get it done the way I wanted. So I’ve been struggling to come up with an easier D word. Now I’ve got D words coming out the ying yang, so thanks A to Z. Most of them are rather depressing – demons, demonizing, death, doom and gloom, discipline, dysfunction, desperate, different, determined, dare. So the irony is that I could write about four or five D posts now.



Instead, I’ve decided to go in a more positive direction. My favorite verse  is “Trust in the Lord with all your heart. Do not depend on your own understanding.” (Proverbs 3:5)



Who or what do we depend on? I depend on my own understanding. A lot. I also depend on circumstances or relationships sometimes. And of course many of us have crutches and escapes that we depend on to get us through our days – from the obvious drugs and alcohol to electronic screens and keeping busy.



Why is it so hard to depend on God? I don’t “do” trust very well. It means admitting that He knows me better than I know myself. That He knows my desires and will take care of them better than I can. I think I know what will make me happy. I’ve made choices in the past that I was sure would bring me fulfillment and happiness in the long term. But I’ve been wrong. More than once.



It’s difficult for me to be still. And quiet. And wait on God. But ultimately I know He’s the only One I can really depend on. He’s the only One big enough to handle my darkness and all those other awful D words that can consume me. He’s the only One who really knows me and is looking out for my best interests, always and unconditionally. Now if I could just remember that…..




11 comments:

  1. My source of dependance are my friends!

    www.volatilespirits.com

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    1. Yes, friends are certainly good too.

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  2. It would be comforting to feel you could depend on someone aside from yourself, but I see wht you mean about being still and waiting.

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    1. yeah, I usually want to forge ahead with what i think I want. but ultimately it does free you to depend on someone else. just tough to get to that point.

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  3. Cheryl, I absolutely love this. That's a verse I need to repeat to myself more often, because I do try to depend on myself far too much.

    It's kind of ironic, really. I'm mortal, fallible, and limited in my knowledge and understanding. God is immortal, infallible, eternal, and completely wise. Why NOT depend on him?? :)

    I actually did write about death today but took it in a non-depressing direction (how's that for alliteration?). I'd love if you'd stop by and read the post!

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    1. Why not depend on Him? I know, right?

      I will definitely check out your post.

      glad you liked mine.

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  4. i appreciate your post, it was deep and honest. God is the number one caregiver, we just need to have faith that he will.

    happy d day!

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  5. Returning your visit for the A to Z. Excellent choice for D. I don't "do" trust very well either....with anyone, up to and including God and myself. I'm working at that though.

    Good luck with your Challenge!

    Lana D. (NotAlwaysSoberChronicFabulous)

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    1. thanks. I really enjoy and appreciate the raw honesty in your writing.

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  6. Nice post! Sometimes I'm afraid to depend on God because I'm afraid of what He will tell me, or want me to do. Of course I know that He knows best...it's just that following Him and His will can be very scary sometimes. Thanks for stopping at my blog! Shelly Burke I'm blogging at www.achristianmomsguide.blogspot.com and www.nebraskafamilytimes.blogspot.com.

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