Thursday, January 3, 2013
I'm just wondering: why is change so hard? Don't they say awareness is half the battle? It doesn't seem to be for me. I want to be a more compassionate, loving parent. I want to be patient and attentive with my kids. I realize that I take things too personally sometimes. I immerse myself in parenting articles - the positive parenting, attachment parenting and all the rest. I know it's a paradigm change. Yet still I find myself being harsh. Over and over again. Doing things I know are pretty much useless. Like barking orders from the other room while I get dinner or type on the computer. Like yelling and trying to force them to behave the way I want them to.
Old habits die hard. But why? Why do we continue to do things that we don't want to do? Why is it so hard to break cycles? Or maybe the better question is: how do we break cycles? How do we make the changes we KNOW we should make?
I don't have any answers. I'm just wondering.